Monday, March 7, 2011

All I know,is Broken.

Have been in and out of nightmares lately.

Rest is fitful.

I've lost count of the times I cry myself to sleep.

And wake with puffy eyes.

Feel so alone in this turmoil.

I wonder how long more I can hang on?

I don't know if you love me.

I seriously don't.

Your words and actions contradict.

and now certain times when I think back,

I doubt I can trust you anymore.

Maybe you're growing to tire of me.

The amount of time we spend together is decreasing.

Even the messages and calls have dwindled to a pathetic amount.

And even when you're physically here with me,

I feel your mind and heart is someplace else.

Maybe I used to be your priority.

But now,

I'm just a mere option.

How 5 months can change so many things.

Bringing me to dinner,

Watching movies after movies,

is that all to being in a relationship?

I just want to not be taken for granted.

I just wanna be happy like all the other girls out there,

who have their boyfriend's full attention and love.

Whose boyfriend spoil them and shower them with affection.

I'm really envious.

After so long,

when will it be my turn to be like them?

I don't wanna smile when I feel like crying.

I don't wanna laugh when I feel like screaming.

I don't wanna live when I feel like dying.

You know today,

I realised that I don't know you,

at all.

I may be a silly girl,

but I'm not stupid..

5:33 AM

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