Thursday, August 11, 2011

Its the Sound of Missing you

Stupid bug that keeps asking for verification halted my updates.

Well, but I finally found a way round it and I feel like a fool cos I could have done it the first time I couldn't log in to write here.

It's been a space of almost half a year.

How do I even begin to attempt to fit half a year of events and memories here?

Not going to be able to do any justice to anything

It hasn't been the easiest road for us,

But than they always say that the right road is not the easiest.

I can attest to that.

We have our bad days and good days.

We fight,quarrel,shout at each other over what to eat/where to go/what to do(me especially)

But always make up with kisses at the end of the day.

I guess it all boils down to loving each other through the imperfections.

For Him,

I can't stand the way he's always tardy for whatever reasons.I can't stand the way he fumbles though our dates like a lost kid who doesn't know where to go or what to do.I can't stand how he is always so busy.I can't stand the way he nags at me to eat my pills and my meals.I can't stand the way he is sensitive/insensitive.--Well you get the drift.

For Me,

I'm gonna put myself in his shoes here and try to guess what he hates about me.So here goes-

He can't stand the way I'm always so stubborn and insist that things go my way.He can't stand my sudden outbursts of temper.He can't stand the way I always skip my meals and having to nag at me relentlessly to eat right.He can't stand it when I'm fierce to him,cos apparently I'm downright mean and it hurts his ego.

Well the list could go on and on cos as Humans,

We're always overly critical and are fast to pinpoint faults.

But we're slow to singing praises and being the least bit appreciative

No one's perfect but we still can complain right?

The biggest bombshell in these few months is that we're gonna have our solemnization in December,if everything goes well.

The little girl here is getting married!

What is the world coming to?

People around wow-ed and commented that we're too young when we broke the news.

My Parents especially.

I understand everyone's concern.

We've both thought long and hard about it.

We may be young but we do know what we want.

And that is a future with each other.

Heck,we've even conjured up names for our kids!

So now we're frantic with everything.

I'm so inexperienced and its all so rushed.

Have to settle the photoshoots and whatnots.

But it's all so new and exciting.

And Baby say's he's bringing me to Taiwan for the photoshoot.

Wheee!

Now it gets lonely sometimes.

Cos he's been really busy.

Sometimes I feel kinda neglected.

But I understand its not something that can be helped.

It's the nature of his job,I know.

He's always so good at what he does and I swell with pride at the thought of it.

Still,there is some room for lament.

The long lonely nights that pass,waiting for just a single call.

The erratic timings that we meet and part.

The tempers we throw at each other cos we're so tired with work by the time we meet.

The last minute change of plans.

I guess he's busy conducting his live-firing now.

I never really had the chance to talk to him today and I'm missing him so much it hurts when I breathe.

Without his company,

The days seem so dreary and the nights seem so much longer.

Food is tasteless and TV is boring.

I'm almost boiling over with emptiness.

I can clearly feel my heart beating frantically within my rib cage.

Every beat resounds with a I MISS YOU

No,

I don't think I'm crazy or anything.

I'm just a girl who is in love.

7:44 PM

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